Youtube daily report May 1 2017

Hi guys, it's Cindy Lietz, your Polymer Clay

Tutor. Today in the PcT Test Lab, we

are testing the brand new Sculpey Liquid

Bakeable Clay in black, white, and clear.

Now Sculpey has been bringing out

several different liquid bakeable clays.

We've had what we called Translucent

Liquid Sculpey for years, a lot of us

called it TLS but then they added three

new solid-colored or tinted liquid clays,

and these are pearl, gold, and silver,

and just the latest ones they released were

the black, white, and clear. Now black is

super opaque, white is super opaque, and

clear is way clearer than the

translucent. So I'm going to show you a

little test that I did.

Alright, so here are the bottles here, you can see they've

got black, white, and clear. The clear,

it says right down here, so just in case

you missed where it is.

I did a few different tests with it. First of all, I

did a typical test and I'll peel them

off of here in a second. This is a

ceramic tile that I baked directly on to

so that I could have them all with the

exact same conditions. So I baked these...

all these samples at 275 Fahrenheit, I

used my oven thermometer, and I baked for

30 minutes. This is the white clay and I

did two lines of each. I did a raised

line where I just kind of drew a line of

clay. And then the next one, I smeared it

out so that we could see what it was

like as far as how opaque it was, whether

it was really runny or that kind of

thing. And you can see the white and the

black are here, the clear, and you might

not be able to see this that well but

I'm going to peel these up in a sec. The

clear line that I drew ran out quite far,

it's kind of spread out. It didn't stay

rigid like some of the other ones,

so it was quite a bit thinner.

It could be that it was just crazy fresh

or it could be that clear's a little bit thinner.

They do give instructions for

thinning out your liquid clays using

Sculpey Clay Softener, obviously it

wouldn't need to do that with a clear.

But if you've got a translucent clay or

any of the pearls, golds, that kind of

thing, that needs to be thinned out, you

can do that with a clay softener.

Also here is the regular clay in

comparison, you can... might be able to tell

but it's actually a little bit more

yellow and not as clear. I'm going to

show you in a second further. This is the

pearl here, you can see the pearl's quite

thick, the line stayed rigid and stayed

up, same with a gold, probably just

because there's a little bunch of

Mica Powder in there.

Silver, this is Kato Liquid Polyclay and this is Fimo Liquid Gel.

I should probably show you those, I

didn't bring them out, I forgot. So this is

the Fimo Liquid that I'm comparing

it against, and where's the... OK, they're here.

The Kato Liquid Polyclay.

Alright, so let me peel these off first and

just show you the difference in clarity

or opacity. So here is the liquid... the

white liquid clay, and you can see when

we lift it up off the surface, spread

really thin, it's still quite opaque.

And here is the black, I've done a bunch of

cool things with these pieces and I'll

show you that in a minute too, but I'm

just going to show you these little test

swatches first. You can see in an

area where it spreads super thin, you can

see through it a little bit, but the clay

itself is quite opaque, and kind of

matte, the surface is all matte. Now here

is the clear, and this is what a bunch of

us are super excited about.

This clear is so clear, let me just grab a book to show you.

I dropped it on the floor,

at least I can see it. OK, so here's the

clear, look at how clear it is against

the writing. It is just absolutely clear,

there's hardly a difference between

it at all, it's not foggy or anything at all.

And I'll show you with the regular

translucent, it's quite clear but it's a

little bit more foggy. Maybe you can see

it against the black, so here, here

against the black, you can see through it

but it's quite foggy compared to clear, let me show you the clear.

Hopefully the camera is picking up on it

but it is really really quite clear.

There's also a bit of a yellowish tint

that's different in the translucent

compared to the clear.

Pearl, we're not going to go into those too much, I've

already done a video on that but I want

to show you in compare... the... in comparison

to the Kato Liquid, so here's the Kato

Liquid, it's also quite runny, you can see

the single line that I did, it kind of bled out

but the thin part here is... it's shiny but

it isn't quite as white, it's a little

bit more yellow, you can see that against

the... against the white ceramic tile.

So the clearest to lighter, and then the

clearest that we had worked with up

until this point was the Fimo Liquid Gel

and it is very clear, and against the...

or against the new Sculpey

Clear, it's very very comparable. So let's

lay that against something here.

So I would say that the Sculpey Clear is just

slightly foggier than the Fimo, but

very very close.

Fimo also seems to have

a little bit of a texture to it which

you'll never see here, but you can see it

in certain situations. The cool thing

that you can do with the new clear, I

wanted to show you, is you can mix it

with some alcohol ink if you like, and

get these wonderful super clear liquids.

So you can put it on all of your

projects, I also mixed some of the

clear with some PearlEx Powder so you

can give it a load of different looks.

It stays quite translucent and it has

quite a shimmer. Now these are super

super shiny on the backside because they

were baked on a sheet of glass.

Anything that this liquid is up against, if it's

shiny, it bakes on shiny and if it's... if

it's matte surface, it'll bake matte. The

top surface always seems to be relatively matte.

Now here are some little

leaves I made using... I've done a video

before of the Sugar Veil Leaf mats, these lace mats.

I made some black and white, and here's a

clear one here, samples of those leaves

just using these liquid clays in the

mat, and they turned out quite cool.

The black liquid clay, I've got one here,

where I've rubbed a little bit of

Gilders paste on it so you can

see that it takes paints, and pastes,

and all kinds of things quite nicely.

And it's flexible, once it's baked, the liquid clay is.

I also did some experimenting by...

I kind of did some marbling, I did two

rows of two different colors, and then

sort of ran a needle through it.

I noticed in some of the areas if it's...

when it's sat for a while, it kind of bled together.

But this is the area that I did

first, and then this part I kind of did

quicker and got it into the oven, it

didn't seem to bleed in there as much.

You can see at the back kind of what I did.

That looks very cool. I'm thinking this

would be neat to use on something, I

think I like the back actually better

than the front, but there's some

potential there if you want to play around with it.

Also, I used... I'm going to

be doing a demo on it pretty soon but I

used a really cool air pen with the

liquid clays, and here are some of the

examples here. And I got some really cool,

wonderful designs done in the white liquid clay here.

I actually got them by

tracing over some designs in this

Mandala book, so I'll be showing you a

demo on that and just how to use that

air pen. But I thought it was really fun

to use and I could see these being used

in lots of different ways. Because they

were baked on glass, they're super shiny

on the backside and they actually work

as a Window Cling perfectly so you could

actually stick them to the window, you

could stick them to lots of different

things, you can layer them. So I'm very

very excited about these new liquid

clays, I think it brings in a lot of creativity.

It's different to work with than

the solid clays, of course, and it's a liquid

so it's different. But that clear is

really going to be fun, I think we're

going to see some great things being

done with that, mixing in the alcohol

inks, and the powders, making maybe some

Faux Cloisonne projects or Faux enamels,

all kinds of neat things, layering and

stuff. So I think you would really enjoy

it, it's just brand new to the market,

I'll make sure to leave you some links

and things to the products if you are

interested. So I hope that was helpful

for you and that you learned a lot from

it. And if you've got a product that you

would like me to test, you've got a

technique that you would like to learn

more about, or you know, anything to do

with polymer clay that you have

questions about, make sure to leave those

in the suggestions, or suggestions in the

comment section below.

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Alright, so we will see you next time and bye for now

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Kaode, the Game - Presentation (1/4) - Duration: 1:20.

Hello to you all,

and welcome to this first out of 4 videos dedicated to the main topic of the Kaode Chronicles,

which is: Kaode, the game.

So, what is Kaode?

Kaode is a game of adventure, exploration and creature fight.

It is set in a post-apocalyptical world, with fantasy and steampunk influences,

in which the gamer impersonates a Traveler of the Known World and goes on a quest in which HE is the hero.

This multiplayer and community game will allow you to face your friends during epic battles

and to take part in its evolution, its future.

Kaode is a free and ambitious game that has been in development for now 4 years.

It is forged by the enduring fingers and minds of the Fancy Tree Studio.

It is made for role playing and multiplayer RPG game lovers,

as well as for strategic battles and creature collection enthusiasts.

Available to all and at all age,

Kaode still does include many challenges and gives a very important place to its scenario

A delight both for you, old and wise gamer, as well as for you content fans.

Thanks for following us

see you next week for a new video about the content and the presentation of Kaode.

Cheers, xx

Welcome to the Kaode Chronicles future traveler. Until you can start wandering the lands of the Known World, why not check out our other videos?

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VENICE: colorful BURANO | Venezia Ahoy! - Duration: 8:21.

Grey old Germany...

Let's get out of here.

Well... that was fast. Wasn't it?

We took the train and plane yesterday and arrived without much stress.

Actually we wanted to take a boat to Venice.

Somewhere on the interned, we have read, you can purchase a 24 hours ticket

for all public boats in Venice AND for the way from the airport to Venice

*Aaaah! Pigeons!*

Well...

but

that seemed to be the first mistake we already made,

because the guy from the ticket shop told us:

There is a 24 hours ticket for all public boats in Venice

But not for the way from the airport to Venice.

On the other hand, it was not that much of a problem.

We took the bus instead and maybe this was even faster than coming here by boat

And now

it all looks like this.

Today is the second day.

Yesterday we told ourselves:

We won't take any pictures

or shoot any videos.

In the end the first ten minutes, which actually were two hours,

looked like this!

What's kinda difficult

is the public transportation

There are no buses or taxis

Just boats. And we don't really get how the boat connections work.

Also, it feels like the boats are moving pretty slow.

So maybe it's a better idea to walk.

But that is also difficult, because

there are lots and lots of alleys everywhere.

Even the locals seem to not really knowwhere to find which alley.

We searched quite long for our Airbnb.

By the time we found it, it was dark already.

We only had little time left to find something for dinner.

But that's no problem at all. Today we have more time

and, except for the city of Venice itself, we would like to visit the neighbor island Burano.

It's called Burano, isn't it?

"Yep."

Burano.

Whups.

I am pretty these guys are also vlogging... ;-)

Before we move on, I have to do my morning routine.

(great angle... I know...)

There is a little challenge I am doing. More about this in a few days.

Okay now. Let's go!

This is MAPS.ME btw

Without it, we would get lost all the time.

Kathrin is actually good with orientation and stuff

I'm more like, I wander around until I find something what might look familiar to me.

But here we both really have a-

"a problem", was what I wanted to say.

It's just... so awesome here!

Picture motives everywhere.

Pictures, pictures, pictures, pictures, pictures!

There is water. That's good, because Burano is a neighbor island.

But

our boat is already here, so we have to hurry!

There are two reasons we wanted to visit Burano.

First reason: The 24 hours ticket.

We used it to move through Venice (at least a little) and maybe find a few locations easier.

But we also took it to get to Burano within the 24 hours limit

It took us about 40 minutes to get here btw

The second reason we went here is: It's cute.

Everywhere you look you see this!

Kathrin can't stop taking pictures.

But there is a reason for this.

See? Now she's taking a picture of me.

The reason for all these pictures we take is this here:

We bought a new camera and we are trying analog photography now

I'm in the way. We have to move!

That's better.

New camera: Lumix G70. Great, great camera.

We are really having fun with it.The picture quality looks awesome

and we really are using more than automatic mode.

And-

Uhm. Well... I don't know.

I don't get anything done here. Not suprisingly, though.

On the way here, already in Venice, we were like:

"Whoa! This looks awesome!", "And here! And there!", all the time.

We kinda stopped everywhere, because there are so many beautiful spots in Venice

and here in Burano it's the same. I mean, look:

Everywhere you look there are these beautiful, small, painted houses.

From what I did understand

the fisherman used to paint their houses in different colors,

so they could find their homes even when returning in the dark

But I actually don't care so much,

Because it looks so beautiful, I don't have to necessarily know the reason why.

We are back in the main island of Venice

and we used our 24 hours ticket perfectly.

The time limit ended like five minutes ago.

Now it's time to lean back a little.

Well.

I filmed more, than I have thought... There will be a second part.

If you like, what you saw, give me thumb up or leave a comment.

But, no matter what you do, very important, subscribe.

The next part is coming tomorrow or the day after.

Remember: Like, comment, subscribe. Or do what ever you like.

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Are You a Human Being or Just a Programmable Life Form - tech and science - Duration: 7:47.

Are You a Human Being or Just a Programmable Life Form?

There is no clear line dividing science fiction and reality.

If we can think it, we can create it, and so the world becomes a stranger and more interesting

place by the day.

This applies both to our individual universes within, and with the outer world at large.

We really have no idea at all what it means to be a human.

We don�t know where we come from or how we got to this shining gem of a planet.

We don�t know why the earth is covered with the mysteries of antiquity and the monolithic

footprints of giants.

We certainly have little understanding of our fate, nor much of the heavy forces at

play against us.

But we do have the brilliant spark of consciousness as well as free will to help mould our 3-D

experience during the wink of time that passes from birth to what we fear is death.

We are in a sense programmable life forms, and so the question is, what are being programmed

with and by whom?

The Science Fiction Side

Programmable life forms (PLFs) are thought to be artificially created biological organisms

that move about autonomously, yet within the operating parameters prescribed to them by

their creators.

Some surmise that PLF�s are nano-sized creatures designed to invade the human body to influence

its performance, affect the mind in some dastardly way, or to collect information.

Others say PLF�s are more complex extra-terrestrial creatures, similar to grey aliens, or other

cold entities, perhaps created by the military or alien scientists, tasked with analyzing

and influencing human behavior, with experimenting on us as well as ruling over us.

Public information about this is sketchy at best, with some claiming that the Pentagon

and Black-Ops military programs have already pioneered and deployed these technologies

for purposes of psychological and physical warfare.

Others believe that PLF�s are part of a sophisticated array of mind-control technologies

presently engaged in manipulating the human race, along with HAARP, chemtrails, GMO�s,

nano-fibers, vaccines, ELF�s, and so much more.

The common thread is that PLF�s are thought to be artificially-generated, yet somehow

biologically living creatures, confined to a pre-programmed range of awareness which

determines their function and behavior, along with their purpose and mission.

Creepy stuff to be sure, but don�t many people act as programmable life forms?

Don�t they behave as though they�ve been given a script to read and a character to

play?

Don�t most of us seem to be performing a predictable role in this matrix, mindlessly

obedient to the whims of the main stream?

Human Beings are PLF�s

As human beings, we ourselves are indeed programmable life forms, influenced by incomprehensible

collage of internal and external factors, suggestions and demands.

We are anything but static beings.

Atomically, we are stardust, made up of atomic matter held together by the influence of universal

forces.

Deoxyriobonucleic acid, DNA, is the most fundamental community of molecules in all life, containing

the genetic information that determines the type of life form and it�s physical characteristics.

At this level, our genetic makeup determines one�s basic characteristics by directing

cellular activity, and science is fast at work exploring and debating the possibility

for gene manipulation to program human beings to adopt more favorable traits such as resistance

to certain diseases and resistance to addictive behavior.

We are what we eat, and we are what we think, and the human body is affected by our environment

and whatever we consume, either consciously or unwittingly.

The mind is an impressive machine that responds to education, cultural and religions influence,

peer pressure, trickery and manipulation.

Philosophy can change how it operates, as can propaganda, and the psyche is an instrument

of extreme sensitivity, capable of the subtlest communication, yet prone to developing abhorrent

blind spots, depending on how it is trained.

The holistic composition of the human being also determines our level of happiness and

our ability to adapt to and thrive in the day-to-day conditions of life.

In this way, as integral beings, if we are being influenced on one level, the effects

radiate outward to each other part of our make up.

If something goes wrong at the cellular level, disease can overcome and destroy the body.

If something negative occurs at the spiritual level, this can have impact physical health,

mood and even personality.

From our spirit to our DNA, to our body to our mind, we are comparable to computers which

perform functions in accordance with whatever software or program is loaded.

Human beings are multi-dimensional entities made up of a complex array of inter-dependent

and evolving systems.

We are dynamic creatures at every level, and each part of our make up is the product of

whatever influences we accept.

In this manner, the overall health, wellness, condition, and behavior of a human being is

hardly a matter of chance, but instead, we are the ongoing product of an ever-changing

amalgam of many inputs, internal and external, seen and unseen, positive and negative.

The Greatest War is the War on Consciousness

There is a great war happening right now, far more significant than any theatre of military

operations.

It is a war to alter human consciousness in such a way that our lives play out in chaotic,

confusing, depressing struggles, never quite understanding the true value of our lives,

always falling again and again for the lowest of political tricks and schemes, acquiescing

to war and institutionalized theft while ignoring corruption and contempt.

Either we acknowledge our dynamism and work to insert beneficial programs and habits into

our lives, or we stumble on as programmable life forms, performing whatever task we�ve

been told to, remaining blind to our potential destiny as stewards of a prosperous, peaceful

and beautiful planet.

Perhaps the existence of PLF�s is truth.

Maybe it�s half-truth, or not at all, who really knows?

The average person has no direct contact with advanced science like this, so it�s impossible

for most of us to know what is actually happening in the realms of the top-secret or of the

alien.

What we do know for sure, however, is that we are capable of awakening, of expanding

our own individual and communal consciousness, the very aspect of life which animates our

material bodies, and demonstrates that we have more power and control in our lives than

we are told.

It is up to each of us to commandeer our personal evolution in defiance of a warped and deadly

system which has us all targeted for extinction.

�You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it.

That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must

sing, and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for

all that is life.� ~Jiddu Krishnamur

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"my thoughts are very negative..." | Blahtherapy Chat Recording #12 - Duration: 16:32.

You Hellooooooooooooooooooo!

Venter hi how are you?

You I'm awesome! thank you for asking. How about yourself? How are you today?

Venter Its ok today, i guess. I am always restless. i dont know why?/ i think i have social anxiety. any suggestions how to deal with social anxiety?

You Social anxiety comes when you don't have confidence in your social skills... or when you don't have any social skills. Anxiety steps in to motivate you to develop the confidence and skill so that you can function better socially.

Venter yea, you are right. i think i have low self esteem and i also think too much.

You So I would suggest you educate yourself, on how to properly communicate with others. And figure out 'why' you have to communicate with them in the first place. Why do you want to be socially successful in the first place?

Venter its not about being successful socially. its about my loneliness. i just need friends and i love social interactions. its just my anxiety which stops me from having what i want .

You Actually... to be socially successful and confident. You have to first be happy on your own.

Venter oh yea...

You If you aren't, you end up burdening the other people, by taking away their happiness in order to end your own loneliness. That sort of makes them become distant to you.

Venter ok, tbh, i was diagnosed with OCD. I am having intrusive thoughts, which i struggle with myself inside. i am mostly preoccupied with myself dealing with thoughts. so i just fear what if people know about my disorder?/ what if i look stupid in front of them? sorry its complicated.

You Its understandable. And you can see right there, what your mind is asking you to prepare for. Seriously, what will you do if people think you are stupid? Have you answered that for yourself?

Venter The preoccupied fear that the thought will strike at any moment , not even allowing me to enjoy the conversation. its tough to live like this.

You They aren't vain questions.. they are there to be answered. If you answer them in a way, that you would be comfortable with the answer. Then you won't get these thoughts again, and hence ending anxiety. Have you answered these question for yourself?

Venter oh yea. i think i dont. i think i should enquire my thoughts more

You Yupe! We can try and work on answering them here as well! As per your wish.

Venter you mean now?

You Yea. The sooner your anxiety ends, the better no?

Venter well, you sound like a professional. confused so why not?

You (though it does require a good amount of work.)

Venter yea.. thanks for helping me out. it means a lot.

You I'm glad. So! What 'questions' or 'thoughts' (similar to the ones you mentioned before) come to your head? (We will be using those as hints to see what we need to work on)

Venter well, I am struggling with thoughts which are very hostile and intrusive and very haunting. its threatening me. i always say to myself, its just thoughts so dont fear. but i fear too much which gives it more powerful. and i fear that i may end up losing my control and act on those thoughts. is that making sense? my thoughts are very negative in nature and its against morality.

You It does. And what I want from you is, to be very 'specific' about those thoughts you have. Like what 'exact' thoughts you get, that are 'intrusive'? Like 'exact' thoughts, the words your mind says to you, the pictures it shows... et cetera.

Venter well, its like going crazy while conversing with someone, losing my control and molesting someone who is very respectable and godmother like.... sorry thats disgusting... Also when i cross a pregnant lady i feared what if i lose my control and punch them in the belly and kill the child. sorry i think i am crazy to think like that.

You How do you handle stress? and how do you handle anger?

Venter I bottle up everything either it may be anger with someone or over myself. and about stress , i just dont show it up. i just dont vent it out. I just dont know how to handle any negative emotions. I get stuck most of the time.

You You shared some of your thoughts with me that were a bit violent. Why do you think you have these type of thoughts in the first place? Is that type of violence something you have been, or are exposed to? (like for-example, when I was bit young, I saw a series of movies that motivated me for a while to be violent against a certain type of people.) (The movies had a character that took pleasure from killing others, and had a sensible philosophical point of view to it. So I was inclined to accept it for a while.)

Venter yea. actually the thoughts strikes with the aim of causing me more pain. I am more vulnerable to negative thoughst and emotions. its just dont know why. it keep striking at very unusual moment like giving presentation. or very important moment. like attending interviews. so its very annoying

You What kind of 'hostile' thoughts occur when are giving presentation? *when you are...

Venter well, its like what if i lost my attention and lost the the stream of thoughts and end up forgetting everything and stand in the stage like a loser. its all about losing my attention. losing the grip of my focus and there by losing my control. even thinking about a situation like that gives me more panic. is that making sense?

You That's different XD these type of thoughts can be dealt with more easily, compared to the hostile thoughts. So let's work on these type of thoughts first!

Venter ok. yea, but for me both brings same anxiety. may be different in content. but still annoying. for the fear of feeling anxiety, i never give any presentations at all. which is affecting my growth that i always wanted to have.

You Understandable. Thank you for clarifying that. The hostiles thoughts might be a consequence of other anxious activities. So that's why as we work on the others, we might also be at the same-time, managing the hostile ones. For now, let's work with what we can. Alright! Sp, let's say you are giving a presentation, and you 'could' forget what you are talking about.

Venter yes

You What can you do, to prevent this from happening? And when this does happen, what 'can' you do to continue?

Venter well, to prevent this from happening , i need to prepare well before going to present anything. is that right?

You You could 'prepare' well. You could give your presentation in your mind a couple of times (because the mind considers the pictures in our head as real. So if you give a successful and confident presentation in your mind, its as if you gave it in real life!). You could have notes in-front of you, that could remind you of what you need to say next, just in-case you forget.

Venter oh oh k

You What happens with most people who are not-confident, is that they have a hard time conceiving themselves as confident in their mind. That is solved when you give your presentation in your mind, in a very confident manner!

Venter yea.

You Once you can picture yourself doing a certain thing in your head, it becomes easier to do it in reality. Anxiety isn't there to stop you from growing. Its there to make you cautious, of things going wrong. If you are already away of what 'could' go wrong, then you can take the time to prepare for the worst, so that things have more of a likely chance to go right the way you want them to. *already aware of what 'could'....

Venter yea, anyone who follow your steps and do exactly like you say can perform better. but for highly anxious person and who are very sensitive to intrusive thoughts and who are diagnosed with OCD, its tough even if i follow your steps.

You Its tough. But doable yes? That's all we should care about. Just like a muscle, if you haven't done this already, it'll be hard. Once you do it again and again, it'll become super easy.

Venter fyi , I was a topper all my life, i was an excellent speaker, i even participated in public debates in the stage. now that went upside down. i am very anxious, i am feeling like everyone is watching me and criticzing me

You oh! what happened? What made things go so down hill for you? Well, what if they criticize? what then? How do you handle that? I come up and tell you, "You gave a horrible presentation!" <---- what will your reply to this be?

Venter i just went on lock myself and ruminate for hours which even goes for days at a stretch.I felt horrible.I just reject myself. I even slashed my hand lot of times over my problem with intrusive thoughts and over my annoying thoughts.which not even allow me to be in the present moment.its not just presentation now i am struggling withi can live with out giving presentations rest of my life.its intruding my day to day life.which is something i need serious attention to i couldnt even enjoy a conversation, my coffee not taste any more i am not feeling a breeziness of a cool air. i am like a lifeless, zombie.its all because i am having too much thoughts in my mind spiraling like a windmill.

You If its anxiety that is the only issue. Just solving one anxiety after the next here, will help train you on how to solve all other anxieties.

Venter yea.

You So it would be better to not underestimate these little things that we are doing. In the scope of the bigger picture. They are very important.

Venter oh k. i just need my old self back. where i was happy. never worried about anyting. never cared , never regretted i am tired dealing with this anxiety.

You That's gone i'm afraid. And you saying as such is also a result of anxiety. People who are anxious, tend to look to the past for happiness.

Venter yea... how do you know all these? are you a professional? are you a therapist? i mean you are really very helpful.

You That's a tricky question. Because for me, i'm able to help you here, then for you, I have been a therapist. If I didn't, i'm not. If your definition of a therapist is someone who is 'qualified' in this field. Then that is also tricky because... a Ph.D psychologist, who isn't happy, and who isn't in-control of their mind. <----------- can they be qualified to help others, when they couldn't help themselves with all the knowledge they acquired?

Venter no , they cant.

You I'm just happy. I find myself qualified to help others be happy, based on my own achievement of successfully attaining this state of peace.

Venter Ph.D doesnt mean he/she has the magic wand great, i think thats more than sufficient to help others.

You I think so too!

Venter I just asked you, since you are helping me like a therapist. since i ve been to someone. its alright. thanks, you are even better.

You Ahahahahahahaha, thank you! XD What would be your comments on your experience with the 'professionals'?

Venter well, they tried their best, i dont have anything to blame them. If i have to blame someone, its 'me'.since i am not co operating with them at all. its not in their hands , but in my hands.i am just not focused on getting treated.they tried all they could and even asked me to co operate , i am just not ready to do anything from my part.i dont do it intentionally thought, i just wanted to get free for sure! but i felt like ' soemthing' inside me is not allowing me to get treated. and its that 'something' is what troubling me.sorry i sound like schizophrenic.

You You sound completely sensible XD

Venter I am just tired of all the dramas so far happened in my life. I just need some rest. I cant fight my thoughts any more. I tried committing suicide twice, and slashed my hand multiple times. been on and off medicines. had shock therapy.

You WOW! O_O

Venter tried meditations, therapies.i lost my entire career because of my mental illness.there are times i went and enroll myself into mental institutions. and locked myself away from the society and been there for months. i never been in any relationships so far in my life. I was graduated in computer engineering but i never practiced it in real life. I was handsome, now i am feeling very ugly. its been years since i get out of my room and spoke to some strangers. sorry i am a complete mess. My case is very extreme and there is lot needs to be done just to get me away from my room.

You ... this is why I suggest people to be super critical when they go to a therapist. My friend went to psychologists for 2 years and they just made it worse. They gave him labels, they met him twice per week... if they couldn't solve the issue, they just handed him medications that don't really help... they only make you 'feel' alright when everything around you is going down hill. Going there didn't help him and then he felt his issues simply could NOT be solved, if the professionals couldn't do it. <--- it was very simple for me to help him. Some of his habits and mindsets were contributing to his depression, so I simply asked him to come to my house everyday for an hour. So that I could keep him exposed to a positive environment and healthy company. In just 4 weeks, he became from a 'patient' to someone who I started to admire. I mean to mention this, because these issues aren't that complicated to be solved... They are 'made' complicated by these 'professionals' who themselves, are depressed. (not all of course)

Venter wow, yea, you sound practical. i ve seen it myself. they just follow the procedures and they dont have the 'secret ingredient'. i mean the willingess and the involvement to cure the patient. its just they got licensed that doesnt mean they are good at changing lives.

You Exactly. Anything that isn't 'scientifically proven' gets thrown out of the window by them. I personally focus on what works. The way I solved my issues on this topic, weren't because I looked into what science said about these issues. I just looked around on the internet on 'how' people solved these issues for themselves. And I just practiced what sounded sensible. I practiced, saw the result, and from the result I recognized if it helped or not. Science on this subject simply hasn't caught up on what works. And hence anyone I know who is 'scientific' on the subject says, "we do not know what 'causes' depression. We don't know why anxiety is there. We don't know anything! Hence, here you go! A medecine!" I just focus on what works. What helps.

Venter haha... thats some ugly truth about the entire mental care industry. i've read somewhere that the entire psychiatry is a 300 billion $ industry without a single cure.

You ahahahaahahahaha XD yupe.

Venter Its not about thoughts, that i am struggling with, everyday we have lot of thoughts, its just some thoughts pulls my attention from what i am doing at the moment. and end up giving me more negative emotions.

You Would you say you are optimistic?

Venter like fear, anxiety, panic, i was. not anymore. its because i have this inner monster.

You Want to practice it through 2 games we can play right now! being positive is a habit. Which you can develop. *right now!?

Venter oh yea. thanks, i mean if you have time, yea...

You I come here with the intention of spending the whole day XD so don't worry about my time. My most lengthiest conversation has been about 7 hours long. Alright! So do you know about 'the glad game'?

Venter oh wow... you are wonderful. i mean thats soemthing i appreciate a lot.

You I'm glad you perceive me like that. Thank you for being so complimentary and encouraging.

Venter you are changing lives over the screen. you are kind enough to do that.

You Thank you! Thank you for being so acknowledging on that part T_T *tears of joy*

Venter you deserved more than just some appreciation and some complimentary words. there are lot of depressed souls out here who just looking for help.

You Indeed. (This place is populated pretty much all day long XD )

Venter yea... thanks for spending your time to help these people including me.

You Most welcome! Thank you for valuing my words and time so much! Back to the glad game now!

Venter sure.

You Alright so, in the glad game, we basically come up with an extremely messed up situation! (like what if your legs got severed? or your cat got nailed to a wall? or your family got locked in an underground dungeon for days? Or your whole schoolmate/work-mates got sacrificed in a black magic ritual?). We first come up with a messed up scenario (that shouldn't have anything to do with our personal lives) and then! we only say out loud the positive things that happen to us, because of that messed up scenario.

Venter oh k

You For-example. Let's say my legs got severed from below my knee. And now I can't walk! So what positive things occur because of this? Well, I don't get to do house chores anymore!

Venter lol

You all of that goes to my siblings! (yay!)

Venter yea. thats very postive thinking confused

You I now have a very clear reason to NOT attend boring weddings and functions

Venter wow...

You this is just a game to exercise our positive thinking

Venter yea... i am already feeling the vibe of it.

You I can sit with ease all day in-front of my computer, and be more productive!

Venter beautiful. yea.

You So that was the example! do you get what the glad game is now? Of course this was one sided. We both have to give our positive perspective on things. Trust me, it gets really funny XD and creative!

Venter oh yea... sure i understood.

You Alright so what messed up scenario should we consider? Got any ideas? It should be extreme!

Venter like losing my close relatives sorry i am very negative. its been haunting me for a long time. like what if lose someone in accident

You All relatives. Gone! they flew away to some other country, they died, got sacrificed for a black magic ritual. et cetera. They are gone you are only allowed (in the game) to speak positive thoughts. The negative, you cannot

Venter yea...

You The negative will come. You are just not to say them out loud!

Venter oh k

You We'll work on the loosing someone close to you thing as well, but later!

Venter oh k sure

You Alright so all relatives. Lost. What kind of positive things can happen because of this?

Venter its making sense. its way too positive for me. but i feel good.

You For me... I live in a joint family. If all my relatives are lost...

Venter well about the positive things, they are always annoying , so not anymore.

You I get the whole house to party in O_O yASS!

Venter haha

You I live in a big house so XD

Venter cool. you gonna do whatever you want in that house.

You I can live upstairs, its a beautiful balcony there. I can sit there and use my laptop there! yea!

Venter exactly.

You Also I have to attend boring weddings, boring birthday parties of my relatives. All that gone!

Venter i dont have to heed to all the advices they pour on me. i can do what ever i wanted to. i can make lost of mistakes without having to justify anything.

You awesome! there we go. I get that as well. They all give advice as they are professionals on life XD my mother keeps telling me what my relatives say about what i'm doing. And how what i'm doing, isn't good! I don't get to hear that anymore biggrin

Venter i live in a joint family too. exactly.

You I say something to my mother. And then she asks all the relatives. And then they all speak against me and they turn my mother against me. That stops! that would be so awesome!

Venter yea... its freedom to be yourself. there ll be no burden to prove anyone.

You indeed! *thumbs up* that's the spirit My relatives have means of 'passive' income. If they aren't here, that money comes to my family!

Venter haha thats the true freedom. you really mean when you said about getting creative lol

You yea! XD its fun. We are going to play this a few times until you get the hang of it! You can even play it with someone else. its really really fun! Alright! anything else positive coming in your mind in this messed up scenario? Or should we make up a new messed up scenario?

Venter yea, it is. we can do a new one.

You Any ideas? i know! no power anymore.

Venter yea? no power?

You Zero electricity.

Venter oh seriously?

You Yea! that's extreme!

Venter I mean its not.

You its not extreme? O_O

Venter i am well familiar with no electricity.

You ahahahahahaha XD

Venter i am from India, for godsake. is that making sense? now?

You it does. Its the same in my country.

Venter oh where are you from? Africa?

You Though I suggested that there be no electricity for months! what then? (does that happen in your place? ) I'm from Pakistan XD

Venter months... NO oh wow, you are my neighbour.

You yupe!

Venter and my enemy too? lol

You I suppose XD

Venter so now back to outage

You No electricity for a few months then!

Venter there will be no connection no mobile no computers no nothing. wow...

You People will actually get out, stop using the computer and their smartphone and play together! In just my street, I can expect about a hundred of individuals playing cricket every evening! it would be so lively!

Venter exactly

You I can meet so many people. Offer my services, influence them :3

Venter wow, its true living, in fact. i mean we disconnect our mobiles to get connect with ourselves. its true connection.

You Yea! Everyone would know each other, (these days, we don't know our neighbours that much or what's going on in their life)...

Venter yea, you are right. its really getting worse even more.

You Once the connections come back up in a few months. We'll be so much closer to each other! Like... if I became president or something, i'll have a month with no electricity every year XD so people experience 'true' connection

Venter wow... you are making sense. we will be here and now. rather than living in the screen.

You My mother will stop watching those awful dramas that always have negativity. No one will watch news anymore! so much negativity will go away from our society! women will stop watching those negative and stupid pakistani and indian dramas

Venter wow... yea.

You Islamaphobia, racism and so much will be eliminated from society just from news going away O_O wow! this is so awesome! I should learn hacking and kill the global power system or something

Venter yea, its gonna be awesome, that way. entire world is build on electricity its hard to think a world without electricity though. but still since we only have to talk about postives.

You yupe! razz glad you remembered

Venter for me its all about living disconnected and not flooding your mind with too much informations like TV , Web, Mobile. and all will be gone. we gonna be innocents. we we have to know about something we have to go to library if we *

You oh yea! libraries will become more lively!

Venter there will be lot of human interactions

You they will indeed!

Venter we just dont preoccupied with mobiles. we open our eyes and mind and see the things in front of our eyes. and get lost in our mind. we dont get lost in our mind* lot of positives.

You *super thumbs up!* Alright! Let's do another one! Any ideas on our next messed up scenario?

Venter well, how about losing all your money and end up with nothing in the street? all your assets and all the things you own.

You brilliant!

Venter you dont have anything now. whats postive in that? you even have no money now to afford a least meal for the lunch. thats negative. i knew. now not just the money but all your so called ' status'.

You I will be completely free. At that moment in time. I can do anything I want without restrictions. What I mean by that is... I won't have the responsibilities I have now...

Right now, I have a family. Hence responsibilities All that goes away. I have enough skills to go a number of places and get hired. I can simply get a job with the English skills that I have!

I can move away from here. I don't have any property to take with me, so I can simply move from one place to another and live an adventurous life!

Venter yea...

You I can sit on a train to no where and just explore!

Venter beautiful.

You In america, a man lived on nothing but the expired food collected from dumpsters! it was clean, just expired! he lived off from collecting that, and travelling from one city to another!

Venter i can relate myself with all the things you just said. oh yea? really? wow.

You I wouldn't have any connections, and 'limitations', any responsibilities and I think for a while if could live like that. Even for a little while, it would be very liberating! and just an amazing experience to me! I have never lived in that state of life. I am continuously burdened by the thought of 'earning' and making sure that I start to earn quickly, so I can provide for my family.

Venter yea, i can feel that liberation smile

You It would be amazing to be free from all that And just be on your own. Just have responsibility of yourself.

Venter its like only if you ready to lose anything ,you are free to do anything. since we already dont have anything and nothing to lose, we are free already.

You indeed! that's so awesome that i'm going to record it !

Venter its like practicing detachment.

You Correct! NO money, means no property to protect. On your own, no burdens of taking responsibility for other people.

Venter the things you own end up owning you. ~ fight club quote.

You :O I get to start my life from zero. A fresh new start!

Venter yea. its no that we cant live without anything. its just the idea that more frightening than the reality. we can live with nothing. but we fear society. we fear responsiblity. lot of apprehensions will be gone, in that state. like we have no status, we dont have to worry about searching for a perfect job. the so called ' perfect job' always allures us.

You Once we are on street. We can choose which responsibilities we want to take upon ourselves. And not just adhere to the fact that we were born in-to a place where we had responsibilities placed on us. We also have no rules! no one could tell me what to do! I can do what I want! (in the capacity of my morals I mean XD ) yea! We don't have anybody to impress anymore. No family members to show off to!

Venter yea... you can do anything. i know how to drive car and i can even become a driver. lol instead of searching for a high prestigious profession, i ll do anyting i want.

You exactly!

Venter i can travel a lot. i dont have to save anything. since i dont have anyone. i am literally on the street.

You Living small too. I can just go to the country side and start farming and live a simple life. No complicated city stuff... just a simple farmer life.

Venter exactly. so its like lot of postiives in all the negative scenario. its like we always looked the door closed rather than the door which is opened. and we feel worse about that. how much negativity , it is ? right? so much.

You Yea! to train our brain to consider all the positives first! Once we do that. That relaxes our brain in having the opportunity to experience all the positive consequence of our circumstance. Then when we face difficulties and negativity, we have amazing motivation to deal with them! that's a great analogy O_O wow! you are awesome with your words!

Venter no i just quoted helen keller lol i am not well versed..

You ahahahahahahahahaha XD

Venter she also said another thing, which i like even more life can be nothing or adventurous, its up to you.

You *thumbs up*

Venter thanks , i am already feeling very positive today. you really helped me with what i am working on already(getting back my sanity and seeing the silver lining). it means a lot.

You Most welcome!

Venter its all about being calm and control. Thanks for the time, Bro. Bot, Blonde. whatever you are. Your time you spend with me today never get wasted.

You Bro here XD I'm glad. I'm willing to invest more if you are. Just to inform you that is.

Venter well, thanks, its something i love to spend the time myself, but i have to leave right now, if you dont mind.

You of course! As long as i'm here. I am a slave to your commands!

Venter i am very lucky today that i get connected to you.

Venter you ain't. You are the peaceful warrior. you are not slave.

You So am I!

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