My intention with these talks basically is to like so if there's anything from holding
you back from realizing your fullest potential like to illuminate what that might be.
Certainly my job would be one of them.
Okay cool. So my question to you is so how do you anticipate to activate your genius
if you're, if you're like prostituting your gifts or your time.
I have this idea I can do it all.
Well, so why - that job doesn't seem to be your highest calling to you from what I've
heard from you.
No.
And it seems like the more you practice putting off what you want to do and using that job
as a security that the better you're going to get at that.
Like there's so many I'm imagining that you've talked to so many parents and ike
your parents potentially my parents his parents - it's like this is the way that it is - like
they have this mentality that "this is the way it is." But I don't think they were
born that way. Like this there this - I have all these bills and I have to pay this job
- this is what their job allows them to pay these bills and they're kind of in this
rat race. But I don't think that happened automatically. I think they spent years of
practicing that without knowing they were practicing that. That's kind of in a way
how I see you and I think the sooner you get out of that the faster your the fuller version
of your heroes journey will be revealed. But in the meantime it's like it seems like
you're taking a break, a break from that path. and I'm not, I think like your jobs
awesome its one of the greatest jobs but it's still working for someone else. And I don't
know how you can find out what you really want to do if you're spending a minute working
for someone else - or I don't know a minute is an exaggeration but if you're spending
hours like how much hours a week do you think you spend?
Thirty to fifty depending -
So basically a full time job - so how can you how can you - you have a a full time job
not that doesn't really that's not based on what you fully want to do.
Correct.
Okay, so that - that is a - thats a big topic then. No only for you but for a lot of people.
And for a lot of people who think have practiced it a lot longer than you have practiced it
just gets realer and realer. So my question is why are you still working that job and
when are you going to stop doing that unless it's really what you want to do?
Yeah it's it's not what I want to do - and I trick myself into thinking it's not even
tricking its that the lifestyle that it affords me and its lifestyle that I enjoy and allows
me to live a certain way and yeah I identify a lot with it, I'm able to help people through
that and which I imagine it gives me a sense of significance.
Yeah yeah I want to be clear - I think you're one of the greatest employees that that company
or any company can ever wish for. And I don't mean that necessarily as a compliment because
when I say employee I think of someone who is under a ploy for the benefit of someone
else
under a ploy -I've never heard that.
- like you're in a ploy. And and I can see how your employers probably want you to feel
like you're doing something good - you're helping people it's aligned - like it's
very aligned and close to what you fully want. but yeah I think the real leaders - the people
that are making the biggest impact for instance like the people who started the company that
you're working the person that's the face of the brand or our friend JP sears or even
Elliott Hulse - these guys that you're really inspired by - myself. I think we all came
to terms with quitting being an employee.
Yeah
And for JP - for JP being one of our really good mutual friends I I've known him and
right right around the time he stopped being an employee and really it's just like I
don't think it was very easy for him or secure or comforting in the beginning but
it's just like oh yeah this is the treasure that's unlocked for him stopping fullfilling
someone else's dream.
Yeah I think that I have this idea that I want to transition the security even if it's
just a little bit - I just want to hold on a little bit. And start and I feel like i
have started on that path of starting away from it where I can continue if I want to
but I don't have to in a sense. And I'm realizing more and more that that's an illusion
that I'll never really …
And how much time do you want to realize that - that's where I think life has a really
mysterious way of unfolding - if someone isn't proactive with what they want I wonder if
life gives it to them in a more contrasting way. And I'm not at all putting any kind
of spell on you but I'm just noticing patterns. Like when someone doesn't break the pattern
of like of the culture sometimes the culture might kind of start to feel like it's breaking
them. And I I understand that like security is very important and I think security for
her is is the most important thing right now - like us providing security for her but for
her to figure out who she really is but I one day she's probably going to let go of
that security and if she doesnt im not sure if she will ever know what life is like without
being depended on security from other people.
I have a joy in doing things with people but I also think it's a crutch um that it's
like oh if we're in this together then it's not my burden to bear - or its like that I
have someone in the fight with me. Which can be a good thing certainly but I think that
I'm allowing it to hinder me in a lot of ways.
Yeah this is such a big thing for so many people - so I'm happy that we're having
this conversation. And um I've probably painted a picture in different metaphors - it
seems like you're wanting to swim with arm floats on and you're like can I leave an
arm float on, or can i leave an ankle float on, or can I just leave like a foot float
on? Well if the treasure is under the sea or like through your emotional experience of
cutting the cutting the umbilical cord of sorts then I don't know if you will ever
get that treasure, even with one float on. So the question is like how to go all in and
I guess I'm wondering what use - is the security financial security what like -
Definitely.
So if someone is watching this and they're ready and like I'm gonna gift that guy I'm
gonna gift that guy a million dollars this year to stop doing
anything out of his genius because I want to see his genius fully activated. Can you
start living like that before that gift is given because then I think that gift will
come. And I don't know if that gift will ever come until you can start living that
way first - and that's what I'm wondering how can - what perspective can i share what's
it gonna take for you start living that way that you are taken care of and that the most
important thing for you to do is realize and actualize your genius your gift, like what's
actually aligned with you regardless of any financial worries. Um because I think even
people that have a lot of money their financial worries sometimes just increase what is it
gonna take for you to do that - do you know is there any idea is there any inkling or
suspicion of what it is?
Yeah I mean it's it's a leap of faith, I can try and sugar coat it like if this then
that but this than that doesn't serve me typically - um yeah i think that i just have
this story that if I'm not the one that holds on to this for all of us then we're
all gonna be but not only me but everybody in our home …
Will be in a place where they can finally swim free..
Yeah I see what you did there.
Yeah Im not - this is an extreme - it's a leap of a faith and its a rust and surrendering
and the heroes journey and dying to your old identity like leaving your parents or leaving
home. It's one thing to leave your parents or where you lived and like where you grew
up but it's another thing to leave like anything that's weighing you down from flying
as free as possible. And yeah I want to see you realize that ASAP. I would say, I would
say quit your job now - and the timer. Anything to say about that with another 30 seconds
here.
I'm curious to how I'm going to feel after Elliot. For me this has been something - I've
been looking at all of us but myself in particular like as a pivotal turning point but maybe
it won't be maybe it's a glamorization of all of this. Um
Yeah its um keeping on the umbilical chord - even saying "oh, after this week then I'll be ready."
Why not just quit before you go? And then be really free for that experience in a new
way - ya know a new metaphorical way, a new energetic way that "wow I'm going into this event
with no back up." W wonder what would happen for you. That's when um, man when I when
I decided to stop accepting money for things that weren't aligned with my highest self,
that's when miraculous things have started happening that make no sense. They're not even
practical, they're not even logical I can't even advise them but like the point where
I was I'm like I don't know what we're doing - like rents due tomorrow and I'm
not really taking money for these and like I could charge people for these, I don't
feel like charging people for these. That's when someone showed up and was like I want
to gift this to you to stay in your genius - I didn't ask that person to they just showed
up basically magically. So I want to see your version of that - and I'm not sure if I'll
ever see that version if you keep putting off surrendering. And there we go.
Thank you.
Yeah yeah maybe this'll be the one, maybe something will happen maybe it will never
happen maybe you just feeling that tension is your heroes journey for whatever reason
- but I doubt it.
I doubt it too.
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