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Hello gang!
A little bit of a more relaxed video.
I got my glasses. Got a big hoodie.
For those of you that do not know, May is mental health awareness month
So I figured I would do a chill video talking about mental health, and how I deal, and all that jazz.
Because, there's nothing wrong with talking about mental health, and we should get used to it. You know?
So, I've kind of always struggled with my mental health, like my whole life growing up.
Specifically with anxiety, I had really bad social anxiety and separation anxiety.
And over the years it's gotten a lot better, and kind of morphed and manifested into other things.
I still have pretty bad social anxiety
But I also struggle with depression, and that kind of side of things
'Cuz those two kind of just go hand in hand.
Perfect little pair to ruin you.
Growing up it was really around, um,
Speaking in front of the class, doing presentations, stuff like that.
Now I really struggle with going into stores and talking to cashiers, making transactions, talking to new people
Stuff like that is more what I struggle with
And more, like, day to day what is upsetting to me.
I would say it didn't really become like an issue until I turned like 13
And then it was a very big issue, I actually had to be pulled out of school for a little bit.
I basically just slept for four months, I had a really bad depressive episode.
But that is when I cut my hair, A,
And B, I also started seeing a therapist, which is very beneficial, for me at least.
And, at the time, was extremely beneficial.
I don't want to, like, accidentally bring the tone of this down.
I don't want to make this a sad, serious video.
Because, that's not, like, how I am with this kind of stuff.
Like, this isn't a super sad, serious topic for me. It's more just like, this is my life.
And I want it to just be chill
And I am okay, like making jokes about it, like it's totally
Thank you, train.
It's not like something that's weird for me, so I don't want to bring the tone down.
I am actually still not in normal school, because of mental health stuff.
Like, how it manifests now is more...
I can't be in crowded places, I have a lot of executive dysfunction, I have a lot of self care issues.
Like, it's more internal than, like, external.
Whereas, when I was younger, it was a lot more like
If I didn't like something, I would just cry, like kids do.
But now, it's more I just internalize it and internalize it, and get really, really tired.
But that's more how it manifests now, so I really have to be careful with...
Like, making sure that I talk to people, making sure that I eat, making sure that I take my meds
Stuff like that, because I'll just forget to do that.
Like, I'll just go in my room and just not talk to anybody for days.
In the past couple of years, I've really taken initiative, to make sure that I have a support system in place
Of people that will text me, or message me, and make sure that I ate, and drank water, and took my meds
And I use apps, I use Booster Buddy and Aloe Bud.
Two I would highly recommend.
If you are more of a goal oriented type person, and you want rewards, I would highly recommend Booster Buddy.
If you just want reminders, and like little things to be able to check in and see if you did it, I would recommend Aloe Bud.
Not sponsored by either, but if either of them wants to hit me up, please.
Hello.
I see a therapist weekly, to just kind of shoot the shit and talk about my life, and just how it is and how I've been doing.
I've been seeing her for like five years.
I think there's a lot of weird stigma around therapy.
And I want to do a whole video about therapy, and exchanges I've had with my therapist, because my therapist is hilarious.
I think people go and I think they just think of lying on a table, being psychoanalyzed kind of thing, when they think therapy.
And that's not it at all. Like my therapist- we literally talk about like podcasts
Like, last week I went in there and I literally talked about The Bright Sessions for, like, twenty minutes
And, like, got after her for not being caught up
That's literally the dynamic we have.
Just having someone to talk to is so beneficial.
I think when you're really in it you don't realize how much you need someone to just-
Not even try and help you, because it can feel like everyone around you is trying to help you and you don't want that-
So, to not even try and help you, but to just talk to you
It's really nice to have that.
Another thing that's really helped me with my anxiety had actually been meditation and mindfulness
And I know everyone that has anxiety has been asked, like,
"Oh my god, have you tried yoga? Have you tried meditation?"
It's like...
"Yeah, Karen. I have. Of course I have."
But if you can actually find something that jives with you
And isn't just like, "okay breathe in for seven seconds" and just teaches you 7/11 breathing
Or like, something stupid like that
It actually is beneficial.
I use two different apps. I use RelaxMelodies, and I just found one the other day that I really like.
I'm blanking on the name, hold on.
It's called Simple Habit, it's super easy to use, it has a really simple interface.
*phone dings*
Sorry, that's my girlfriend.
But yeah, both have courses for sleep, or just quick relaxation.
You can do five, ten, or twenty minute sessions, and just- you could do just like a quick check in
I've found that to be extremely beneficial, like if I'm feeling a panic attack coming on
I'll just do a quick check in, and be like "hey why is this happening? what's going on?"
And just taking a second to just put your earbuds in, close your eyes, focus on your breathing
And just be with yourself, and see what's happening, and what's going on.
And just feeling the emotions, validating the emotions, and letting them go
Letting them pass, is very beneficial to me.
And it might not be to you-
oh my god.
Sometimes when I meditate I'll use crystals, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I'll just sit there.
But just having something in your hands to kind of ground you is nice.
But that's just more personal preferance.
I find crystals to be very nice, and I like the energy
Personal preference, everybody has one.
That's just mine.
That's all I can think of, for this video
I don't want it to be super long, and I don't want it to be super serious, so
I'm just gonna keep it short and sweet, and just...
Keep it whatever.
I will list every app that I mentioned in the description
And maybe I'll link some helpful sources down there as well, for people that are struggling with anxiety, or whatever.
Whatever you got!
Don't feel ashamed to talk about your mental health, or to ask for help if you need it.
There's no shame in any of this, we all have something, and that's the moral of the story here.
You're gonna be okay.
It's all gonna be okay.
Hope you enjoyed, hope you're well, and until next time.
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