I don't know if I could fluently tell my story.
I'm not ready for this. Honestly, I don't have script.
Am I confident to share my whole story?
Hi guys! Welcome back to my channel!
And for today's video I'm gonna be sharing you my glow up story.
my life when I was a kid & my life now.
How I improve myself
My life experience in the past 10 years until now
I'm going to tell you everything
Before anything else, I just wanna tell you that
I am sensitive when it comes to this topic
I don't really share it to anyone
For me, I'm not really open when it comes to my past
and I'm not open sharing my past experiences
because I believe that past experiences must be forgotten
but I know that past experiences in life is not that easy to forget.
And if you also have this kind of experiences in life (bad)
let us set aside this experiences.
And for me, I believe that there are still spaces in my life for improvements.
If you wanna know my glow up story, just keep on watching!
Year 2009, my looks were really different from now and my skin was really not white
and I'm also not flawless that time.
But now I can say that my skin condition now is better unlike before
I have severe acne on my forehead
But in the year of 2009
my pimples are not active that time
my acne doesn't shown up yet
And my skin complexion that time is really dark
But I believe, I born with not too dark skin.
Its just when I was a kid, at that age,
I really love playing outside the house with my friends
when I was a kid.
That time I'm not conscious about my skin, whether my skin will get burn by the sun or I'll gett too dark because of the sun
that's why I still play outside
and I don't care about the heat of the sun
and I felt free from the sun
thats why I used to be dark before
My skin before got too dark
and I'm not really tall
I'm really that small tiny girl until now
thats also the reason why I'm still insecure to tall people
And questioning myself, why am I like this?
But still, its a God's gift..
and I plant it in my mind.
I'm not confident with my height.
I feel so tiny/small
plus my skin was dark
I was also shy before
I was also quiet in school, just focusing on my studies.
And at that time I got bullied because of my height & my skin tone.
I have friends in school that I really felt that they're my real friends
I sat beside them in our classroom
And I realized they're the one who bullied me..
For me, its not offensive & I know they mean no harm to me.
I just realized it today..
that we're just kids before & for me its not a big deal.. for me its not serious.
that I realized it now, its kinda bully.
There's a chance that it is still called bully.
They put their own dandruff in my hair.
they're doing like this on their hair
And at my age now I realized, that they were making fun of me before.
Realizing that the one who sat at my back was the one putting it in my hair.
I just saw it when I got home that day..
I knew to myself that I wash my hair thoroughly before I go too school
so its really my classmate who put it in my head
...in my hair
and because we're just a kid that time,
maybe for them/us we're just playing..
Until you're in the right age,
that its still not right.
there's the side that it is still called "bullying"
when I go to school, I don't really interact with my classmates that much..
I go with only one person & sometimes two.
And I don't really love to join in circle of friends that is more than two.
until now I don't still join the large group of people.
for me, it is so hard to trust someone I know for just a couple of days.
After gradeschool, now its my highschool days..
I transferred to Laguna (Philippines)
my looks still the same as before, and nothing changed..
but pimples got exposed that time on my forehead.
it was so exposed on my forehead, as in.
Maybe its because of puberty hits?
When I was in third year highschool..
I have my pimples on my forehead
it is more that five dots, as in.. with white inside it.
And it makes me feel down, my confidence level is 0
Knowing others' perception, that having pimples is disgusting..
And I know having pimples is part of our growth.
It make my self-confidence really down.
When I was in third year highschool, I got bullied again by texting me something that can make me down. But atleast only in text & not personal.
Its not the same before, at this time we know what we're doing because we're not kids anymore.
They text me messages that can make me down, and I can't help myself doing nothing.
So I texted them back..
which is wrong.
If you also experience Cyberbullying..
you don't need to text them back just for revenge. It will only make the situation worse.
I realized that
It is not right to respond his/her texts.
That time, I know that I was not matured enough
to ignore the situation.
So I tell my problem to somebody that can help me,
It got worse because he/she found out.
He/she brought his/her parent in school
and the situation got reversed..
He/she told to guidance that I was the one texting him/her.
but the only truth was I'm not the one who started everything..
I got depressed... I was being judge that time.
And I was put as a disadvantage.
Its a big lesson for me to just ignore them and just accept that there are people full of envy.
When I was in first year college, my skin still dark..
that time I love doing and making activities outdoor.
I remember that time I used to practice myself using powder & blush-on to make myself presentable.
first blush-on I bought for myself was from the brand elf,
its like a cream that you need to swipe it by your finger and blend it to your cheeks
and at that time I also bought a curlash
Is it curlash? The tool that makes your lashes curl?
And I have long hair before. Its up until my waistline.
I've also tried to visit a dermatologist..
I visited her for my face consultation, just to figure out how to cure my pimples.
Dermatologist recommended me some products that may help to lessen my pimples.
and she also said that my pimples got exposed because of puberty.
And the time when I was in Third year college,
pimples just came back to my face..
and its more than before, I think its because of stress
also I have too many paper works that time.. Research, Mini Thesis..
All just came to me at the same time.
It became stressful for me
to handle my school works
thats why my pimples that time were getting more & more..
I get traumatized by my pimples when I was in Highschool..
that I don't want to have pimples again
but pimples just came out again..
I avoided eating oily foods.. and junkfoods.
I avoid it.
And at that time I believe I was broken..
I tell to myself that I can improve myself..
I've tried so many products.
And I was so shocked..
my skin became naturally blushy..
and my skin became fair
until I continued using whitening products.
Many of them noticed a huge difference on my face.
And before it is not like that!
and I've decided to dye my hair..
because my skin now is white, unlike before..
there's no other color that will look good on my hair.
before, when I dye my hair it make me look darker.
So I stopped it.
Now, I made my hair dye again..
I can now dye my hair with colors that is brighter..
They've notice that I looked whiter with my hair color.
But I really don't want to make my skin much whiter, like the skin of foreigners.. or like the skin of people who's taking glutathione.
I just wanted to see myself glow.. just a simple glow
After that I transferred again to another school..
Hmm.. When I was in third year college.. I'm not sure.
Because I still really feel down
thats why I wanted to have new environment..
I appreciate myself more when I transferred to other school.
I also expressed myself more and I really enjoyed my college life that time when I transferred
I thought its the end of the bullying moments that I've encountered..
When I transferred to this school,
another episode of bullying happened again. Someone texted me again..
and chat me. But its not the person texting me before..
They're texting/chatting me that I'm not qualified to be a Ms. Engineering in school..
And they said that my skin is truely dark & not white, they're threatened me that they can spread all my photos before..
they also said that I kept hiding my true skin color and I was just taking glutathiones. which is not true..
she kept telling me that I am not belong to that school or whatsoever..
Who's that person making me feel down? Even though he/she really don't know me..
And I don't know him/her as well, so I didn't make a move to respond him/her.
After that, I make sure that it will be reported in the guidance councilor just to inform them what happened right after I transfer there.
So I let him/her text/chat me and just ignore it... until they stopped.
For me, it is so depressing to be called as ugly, and threatened me, and saying that I'm not belong to them.. Something like that.
Words are so powerful that it can hurt your feelings but for me it made me strong and it gave me a chance to improve myself..
I took it as a way to improve myself. To be better..
And there was a time that I was so quiet in school because I think of it..
that I don't have much self-confidence..
that I am so weak...
to tell me those things.
And I realized that I should not be affected on that situation.
I also realized that they're non-sense because they really don't know the real me.
Until one year left to finished my college.. I accomplished everything even my thesis, even though I was depressed that time..
I finished my thesis, & feasibility studies..
and now I'm just waiting for the graduation day.
The purpose of this story is..
.....
Hmm.. "What's the purpose of this?"
The purpose of my glow up story is..
We should not be ashamed of ourselves..
And if we really wanted to improve, why not?
I've been with people who are ashamed by those people taking glutathiones. They said those people taking gluta were fake
Do not be affected by that.
Just imagine that they really don't know you..
That they really don't know your real personality.
My purpose in this video is
to tell you that you still have your glow within..
that you still have something to shake, that you still have something to show..
I know that there are people pursuing to improve themselves..
Just continue what you're doing, no one needs to dictate you what you need to do
And if ever, someone is dictating you what you need to do.. Don't ever try to listen to them. Just do what you want because someday it will help you to improve yourself..
And for those who wanted to stay as what thay are.. Its okay. Still, it is their decision.
Always remember that "You are more than what you look" ♥
That's all! I forgot to film an outro :)
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